I want to go Si Chuan

This morning,our team had a meeting,We discussed how to do in the next work.

A member came to asked me when I was coding intently,at that time,I feel that I was out of their

memory.I had an idea that I wanted to go immediately.I worked there,but i lost myself.I made mistake frequently,the major reason was that i did not took care of how to do my work,even though,I coded but I did not thought about more.I did not thought of the related things. I did not care of what would happend when I changed one thing.

At the dining time,I thought a lot.if I  worked hard when I was in MianYang City,I would had be a

manager,maybe there was many coder worked for me,but now,I has noting.I had no enough skills and experiences to made a higher job.

What shall i do? work hard or study english hard?who can tell me!